I have been away too long

Choices....
This has been a time of great unrest...some unhappiness...and fear. I am working my way through all of this, but don't feel like I have done a very good job. Will be writing more...hoping to find some relief and comfort or at the very least a bit of peace.

NaNoWriMo

Wow, I cannot believe that is has been so long since my last post....life has this nasty habit of getting in the way of everything else.
This month I have signed up for NaNoWriMo...wish me luck!
I hope to also write about this wordy adventure...stay tuned

Under the Cherry tree I shall weep for thee

Exit Stage Left

Sounds of a war not worth waging
Guitars screaming in the night
Can't blame me for trying shoes on that did not fit
How would I know if I hadn't tried
Silent conversations
Words unneeded
The deafening sound of unspoken goodbyes

Empty

Why are endings always sad?
Beginnings scary
The middle so boring
I am tired of this
All of it
Trying to make the pieces fit
Wishing them whole
Until I am left holding
Holes in my heart
Pulled through my soul
Can't do it anymore
It's over...
Watching the vultures
Circling
What is left of our love affair

11th

Dark clouds
Hanging low in the winters sky
Memories of your cigarette smoke
Inhaling...Remembering
Scent of Dunhills
Watching you control the smoke
Without thought
Creating a smoke filled dance
Mingling with things unspoken
Always unspoken
But on the tip of my tongue
Bitter taste of regret
It's days like today
So close to your birthday
That I remember
What I wanted to say

Samhain

This night is perfect
Cool breeze blows crisp leaves
The sound excites me
Looking at the moon
Shrouded in her dark drapery clouds
I long for you
Your arms
Capturing
Holding my very soul
Tree bark rough against my back
Lost in your eyes
Dark chasms
Sinking slowly
Down
Falling
Lost
The need in me that craves the abyss within you
Screams for release
Howling for climax
Taken by the wolf moon

Bad Blogger

I have been very bad...No blogs for over a month...hides head in shame.
*sigh*

Seasons Change

It’s in the air
Wrapping around me like an old quilt
Familiar like a lost lover
Hear its voice in the birds’ song
See its breath in the time honored leaf dance
My soul opens for it
Welcoming it into my heart
The orgasm known as Fall

Dwelling Place

How do you know
When the time has come?
All illusions gone
Torn away
Naked...crying soul
Left bare
Alone
Is it a word?
A glance?
Or rather just that empty feeling
Left in the hollows of your heart
Whatever it is...You know
You always do
I am so sick of endings
Pulling the curtain now
Drawing myself into the pain
Knowing this place
All too well

Old Lovers

What do you say to your past?
Hi…seems so lacking
A hug
For a moment
His heartbeat feels like home
Then you remember
Hasn’t been home for a very long time
Bodies remember
Souls look back
In a blink of an eye
Fleeting moment
Smiling
“We really should have dinner sometime”
Said without a thought
Smiling again
“Yes call me”
Knowing that it will never happen
You can’t go home again
Realizing…
You don’t want to
Finally
Hi…is enough

Breasts

Breasts full and heavy
Breasts of an Earth Mother
Not unmoving mounds of plastic
They were made to be felt
Licked
Sucked
Even on occasion bitten
Love to have a man against them
Feeling his hair on my flesh
Tongue laving tender nipples
Tight peaks
Lips bringing pleasure
Nipples the color of the shell I carry
It’s the color of both my nipples and my lips
Normally it rests on my altar
For some reason
I have been carrying it with me
…
…
Why?

Epitaph

Three letters
Carry weight
Cover so much
Leave nothing to chance
Misinterpretation…never
Once heard
Spoken
Everything changes
Cannot take them back
Might as well be carved in stone
Screen fades to black

Fin

Audience

Together
Flesh pressing flesh
Heated
Flushed
Alive
Ragged breath
Calling out to God
Reaching
Climbing
Release found
Cumming down
Dolls watching

Carpe Diem

Hidden
Fantasies
Dance in the dark
Cloaked from view
Does one invite fantasies into the light?
Where they can unfurl
Weave their primal magic
Release the beast within
Untamed
Free
Or keep them
Chained
Held tight
Is the risk...worth the discovery?
Hand shaking
Reaching out
Flipping the switch
Allowing the light in
Time to dance

Beltane

Thoughts rain down

Over me like silk

Covering my body

With memories

Lust filled thoughts

Dark desires

Felt under the moonlight

Morpheus

Dreams
You were here last night
In my head
Body
Felt you there
Hard
Filling me
We played
At untried things
Unspoken desires
Waking
Wanting you
Hurry…Back

Limbo

What do I want?
Need…
Desire…
No fucking clue
Escape feels good to me
Do I
Stay put
Or run?
That question burns my soul
Then again
It always has
I know this place
Having spent time here before
The isle of fear